today...

many feelings...

starting with morning.. woke up at 5.30am.. washed up... went to airport to send off the BSP peeps... what was i feeling then..? im feeling anything but happy... take care everyone...

was a little bit happier when went around with yilin and yixiang... thought of some vid ideas for "I Will" project... then met up with yeling in tampines... together, we went around tampines to find people to take part in our video... then when we have enough vid clips.. we went to IKEA... and we slacked totally..! we went into every showroom and tested the chairs, the beds... took many photos... laughed... haha... yea.. i feel much happier...

the trip soon ended at about 1pm... yilin needs to go off.. so does yixiang... i tagged along with yixiang to ECP to meet the ECP committee for orientation... haha.. took part in their discussion... gave my comments... in the end, we had some good ideas and they are quite constructive! haha.. yay... went to recee awhile.. then yimei has to leave alr.. left me, yixiang, chris, n junhao...

oh ya, yixiang lost his hp in carls junior... freaking guy... cursed man... took away the phone from the toilet... turned the hp off when yimei tried to call... wth... now yixiang has to replace his phone... haiz... everything is lost... MESSAGES... contacts... photos... videos... :(

we went to the beach... find a good place for the games we discussed... then skipped some stones... then when we going off, we nid to catch the rabbit! funny to see 4 guys sprawling around the beach to catch one rabbit...

lol.. talking about the rabbit... we concluded that the rabbit is yixiang's way to attract girls... cuz it really attracted alot of attention along the way wherever he went.. lol...

the rabbit today... peed on yixiang also... in the airport.. and then later on the bus to ikea... water dribbled out of the box onto the floor... and we (yeling, ylin, me, n yixiang) pretended that we placed chrysanthemum inside.. n the bottle leaked... lol...

to end my day... i went for yiwei's school concert; shine night 2009... i was very touched by the performance.. it gave performing a new purpose... the performing arts, being able to perform, gives people the drive, and hope to work hard.. the kids inspired me... seriously.. including yiwei.. haha.. now i know where he got all his dance moves and random song ideas from...

the people who helped these kids in metta school are noble... seriously... they helped many kids and their families... giving them purpose... giving them hope... i enjoyed the concert alot... and was really really touched...

the concert ended on a high note... n many people streamed out of ITE college east... yixiang n family left on bus 31... i waved goodbye and went opposite to take bus 31 back to tampines... reached home only at 10pm...

a whole day out...

n i experienced alot....

Shine Night was impactful... thankyou yixiang for inviting me.. lol.. and your mother for the packed dinner... (though i still feel that eating in the concert hall is bad.. haha) good luck in getting a new phone.. =s

im glad the day turned out this way...

im sorry i didnt bid you goodbye in person... i couldnt face you... i dno what to reply you in the message other than saying to take care of yourself... well... take this chance to unwind.. to take a break from singapore... to move on from the past... i will start my holiday proper on monday.. and i hope you will too, in china...

i dont know if we can be how we used to be..

but you taught me...

never fall for a good friend unless that love can last forever...

take care!

im thinking.. how different are people..? i rmr one GP compre.. 'we are all similar in trying to be different'.. so.. how similar are we? the presence of 'personality types' show that we are but a few combinations of people, and it can be predicted? the fact that there are 'developmental stages' show that everyone go through a period where they experience a similar change? lol...

randomness...

anw.. im so gonna miss the meteor shower.. though my senior discouraged me about seeing it cuz it will not be a 'shower', but once in a long while just a few... n my father bent on asking me to sleep, tell me not to waste my time.. no one holds on to that romantic idea of staying under the stars in the dark, even if it is a 'wasted' trip where you wait for v long to see one star.. i think it is still worth the xperience n time spent with your friends.. lol.. that is, if there is even anybody who would wanna go with me.. haha...

ha.. but weijie here isnt trying to be 'romantic' (im one boring person!) but i like doing such random stuff.. n now hafta wait for another 22 years liao.. haha.. yea.. n dear shunjie says that it would be better then, watching it with my wife.. n kids.. haha! yup, i sure will.. lol...

went back to school for MS interview.. didnt thought it would be that mentally drained to interview people.. 17 of them.. took up my whole day.. got 10 more to go.. zz.. sat? saw the vball peeps as i went out for lunch.. haha.. day 2 of camp...

band orientation for year 4s tml... it will be fun.. (: yay..

my week is filled up... with saturday the worst.. having 4 appointments..? i want to send off the bsp peeps.. but dno who will go with me.? lol... then have exco meeting.. NEmation meeting.. pri school alumni meeting.. all on same day.. zz.. exco meeting comes first.. cuz got teacher.. see how..

thurs will be MS outing.. hope most year 5s will turn up.. friday got band.. then got electone practice at yamaha...

i nid to revise my physics...

lol..

i realise i so nid someone to accompany me to do stuffz.. like many of the above.. but not everyone is willing n able to.. lols..

人要靠自己，不过…

有人靠，也是好的！

haha!

ha.. went to teoheng with bandmates today... had a great time.. thankyou guys.. xD pity i didnt bring camera... as we left katong mall, saw weijia walked out of lan shop.. then got ashley, weicheng, and kiayi... then later we saw inside the lan shop got chaoyuan, pingteck, and other guys playing pool.. its like whole dhs in katong! lol..

on the way home in bus 15.. i just knocked out.. v tired.. woke up twice.. to say goodbye to jiaying n junhao, and then to simin.. n of cuz, a third time, when i nid to alight.. another cold rainy evening.. went to seek shelter from library, borrowed a new book, went out.. still raining.. sian...

having emo nights these two days... have that kinda 'missing sth' de feeling within me.. today... saw the vball teammates outside bandrm.. well.. im no longer part of them.. hhaa.. i can only wave hi, be happy.. then i left them asap.. walked out of atrium.. dno la, its like what mr ng says, "when u leave the band, you cut all ties from us.." i guess its the same everywhere? nth lasts forever.. haha... esp when there is nth linking between the two...

busying these days.. with prom, with MS, with band.. not bad.. tml having year 4 interview for MS.. though some alr expressed their disinterest.. still have sufficient people.. band.. i have this new surge of feeling to want to arrange music to play.. n so far i edited a jaychou medley which the 4F peeps played last year for i heart music.. hah.. next i will do a song which perhaps i like alot.. i dno.. see how...

ytd as i lie in bed.. i was thinking...

my relation with my father... if i were a goody goody kid which listens to everything to what my father says.. then he really has nth else to talk to me.. cuz everytime he opens his mouth to speak to me would be telling me to do my homework, read newspapers, stop playing computer, eat fruits, eat rice, go bathe before using the computer etc. these are just 'instructions'.. n sometimes i listen, sometimes i dont... other than that? im in my own world doing my stuff n he knows nuts about me?

how i wish i had a brother.. lol.. suddenly hav this feeling.. an elder bro to guide me.. or at least, he could listen to everything i have in mind, tell me if im right or wrong, give me advice, teach me what to do.. i realised, as much as i enjoy listening to people's experiences, now i want people to hear about my experiences n tell me which way i should go as well.. lol.. zz's facebook status: i dont know which direction to go.. i replied positively: keep going forward! yea.. but which way? what if a cliff lies ahead of you?

it seems that people know what im going through, but they are afraid to speak it to me... or... you wanna know it from me, but didnt get a chance to ask..?

ha.. facebook.. i see alot of positive stuff people post about me... "no regrets" will be the name of my first album.. a smiley face will be the mascot of my sport team... i would appear in 'lifestyle' section of the newspaper.. "from the heart" describes my lifestyle.. and im "BEZ FRENZ YOZ" with best friend.. lol..

ha.. felt happy.. but how true is it now? lol...

maybe i like the smiley cuz it constantly reminds me how impt it is to be happy n smile...

cheerup weijie (:

一个人发闷的时候就会胡思乱想。


尤其是一个人的时候。


你会这样吗？


vball camp tml.. but im not going.. suddenly feel like going.. haiz...


做什么事，如果要结束，要有个了结的，对吧？

这几个星期，我结束了很多，但又了结了多少？

feeling empty, haha

..and im back to where i started.

hah... tied up every loose ends with regards to matters with the school alrdy.. my subjects.. my ccas.. my teachers... i felt relieved that i have less things on me... i feel hopeful i can do better in the coming year.. but i feel empty.. cuz it's like.. really, i dropped to rock bottom... nth.. it's where i started from ealier this year.. or.. should i say... it's what i have always been doing for the past 4 years... (band n council..)

settle for less...? but achieve more...

lol..

funny day today... went to marina to help jiaying with his OP.. his presentation style.. work with him... together with xingqi... yup.. we went to macs.. then later sop-hia joined us... lol.. then later went lunch... jiaying realised he nid to edit his vid with ulead but his com de ulead expired the trial period.. zz.. called for help.. many people.. included: rachel, siswo, junhao etc. HA.. funny thing is that he didnt realise he is imposing on *er-hem* the two of them.. but desperate times call for desperate measures.. dragged him out soon n left them as i assured that he can find out a way himself.. lol, he did assure us he can do it himself.. ha...

yup weijie.. acceptance.. yourself, and others... makes u happier...

submitting InR tml... looking forward to 5C21 chalet tml... n one more thing.. my father wants to buy me a bicycle! ha.. i dont nid a good one.. but he is actually willing to spend over a hundred though i say we can get a cheaper one at our neighbourhood under a hundred... hmm... well, one condition is that i dont ride on the road.. (:

goodluck to those still having OP~ all the best..!

today i learnt..

the gap between tour 'ideal self' and your 'self image' is your self-esteem.

it is good to have a forte that people recognise you for..


OP is over! today my day started unhappily.. dno why.. my mood was low alrdy frm the start.. probably ytd night it was bad as well.. then before OP i really really couldnt get my mood up.. but during n aft OP i was much relaxed n happier.. then later i become sian again.. n yixiang could actually feel that im quite sian on the bus when we going to aljunied to meet yilin and yeling.. lol.. well.. visited ANIMAGINE.. for NEmation matters...

sad n tired.. shall work on my InR tml..

both your ideal self and self image are just perceptions of yourself created by you.. lower the former and raise the latter to increase your self-image... perceptions are just images of the mind.. you can change it, and feel better yourself (:

i think.

there are many things bugging me and i hvnt been able to deal with it as yet... time is ticking..

another thing i've let go and striked off my list of things to do...

it isnt easy letting go... but when you hafta do it, you hafta do it.

be strong.

music is my life!

^^.smile.always.``
sadisticatedz
a-lone
have fun~
my life in dhs...
EXCO, IA, Band...
2Huga and 4Falala...
Volleyball, MS, 5c21~!




PROFILE

limweijie
4th march
height: not tall

tampines primary school
1.5/2.2/3.1/4.1/5.9/6.9

dunman high school
1/2Huga,3Ffervescence/4Falala
dhssb; dhssc
clarinets; internal affairs

dunman high school (senior high)
fiveCtwentyone; econs rep
DRAKONIAN!
dhsshsb; vball; musicsociety; council
freelance publications photographer? haha!

limweijie@hotmail.com

and i was thinking...
photos on flickr
brisbane photos on flickr
friendster


HISTORY

TPS Prefectorial Board `04
.Vice-Head Prefect

DHSSC Comm. and Pub. `06
DHSSC Orientation~
DHS Voyage `06 (Where the journey begins)
.Flag and Identities IC

DHSSC Level Council (Year 1 n 2) `07
DHSSC Orientation~
DHShine `07 (Where stars are born)
.Event In-Charge
DHSSC Youth Day Carnival `07
.Logistics
TPS Alumni `07
.Project Coordinator

DHSSB Committee `08
.Quarter Master
DHSSB Clarinets~!! `08
.Section Leader
DHSSC Internal Affairs `08!!
.Head of Dept
DHSSC Orientation~
DHS Olympics `08 (Together we run the race)
.Mentor
I *Heart* Music Committee `08
DHSSC Youth Day Games `08
.Mentor
Yamaha Electone Festival `08
.D4 (group ensemble) BASS!!
Movie Marathon 2008
.Food In-Charge

Year4 DHSchase `09
.Facilitator (Group 4H2)
Year3 DHSxpedition `09
.Facilitator (Group 3E2)
DHS Senior High `09
.DRAKONIAN!
DHSSH Student Council
.Student Welfare HOD!
DHS Music Society! `09
.the force behind... haha!
DHS Volleyball~!! `09
.Member
DHS SHSB Clarinets `09
.Member
Sembawang Wind Orchestra
.Clarinet player
TAND CIP Proj `09
.Event Manager


READING LIST

books i feel worth reading
"The Introvert Advantage,
How to Thrive in an Extrovert World"
-- Marti Olsen Laney, Psy. D.

"The Tipping Point"
How Little Things Can Make a Big Difference
-- Malcolm Gladwell

"Blind Spots"
Why Smart People Do Dumb Things
-- Madeleine L. Van Hecke, PhD

"Blink"
The Power of Thinking Without Thinking
-- Malcolm Gladwell

"The EQ Edge"
Emotional Intelligence and Your Success
-- Steven J. Stein, Ph.D.
-- Howard E. Book, M.D.

"Psychology"
Teach Yourself
-- Dr Nicky Hayes

"Killer's Wedge"
An 87th Precinct Novel
-- Ed McBain

"Fiddlers"
An 87th Precinct Novel
-- Ed McBain

FIRST TIMES

210608 entered YEF finals
040708 done a "freeze"
050708 rode a swaveboard
050708 night biked~!
060708 last 24hrs w/o sleep
070708 a call lasting 2:12:27 (with kang)till 0031hrs
130708 walked frm harborfront to buona vista in 3hr 30mins
130708 a call lasting 1:18:32 (with kang)till 0153hrs
140708 a call lasting 1:11:30 (with loy)till 0023hrs
250708 reached home at 4am in the morning aft LA film
030908 read a book 330pages within a day
040908 completed 2 blogposts on the book, totalling 5263words..!
100908 school exploration at mt sinai campus - LT 1
120908 school exploration at mt sinai campus - underground tunnel
071008 mass convo on handphone with 5 participants - 1hr 20mins
191008 first dragonboating experience
191008 first successful job application~!
221008 5hour songwriting (with english lyrics) finished at 0130!
051108 first day at work... -.- 4.30pm to 11pm...
251108 picked my FIRST LOCK in school LT 2!! (tgt with sxiangs)
161208 longest video project yet COMPLETED (36 mins 57s)
161208 climbed into the LOCKED gym through a broken window! EXTREME (tgt with sxiangs)
120109 3 bowls of dessert as dinner! (with yixiang)
250109 a call lasting 0:43:31 (with yx) till 2230hrs
010209 phone mass convo with WYLL for 2hrs 15mins 40s!
230409 ate 6 doughnuts in a row (tgt with jiezhi!)
230509 attended a 21st birthday party
230509 drank Carlsberg :)
280509 overnight in council room (with yx) hiding from guards.. hah!
080609 cycled about 20km 36km frm ECP to Changi in 2hours! (with jxiong)
110609 visited boonlay, pioneer, jookoon mrt stations... (with IA 0708)
040709 walked from tampines to eunos MRT stn (with ter and liangwei)
040709 played guitar hero at mountbatten CC, third prize
040709 played LAN since 5 years ago... (Primary 6)
160709 an OUTGOING call to yixiang which lasted 2hrs 58mins till 3am!
160709 a call with rachel lasting 1hour till 1130pm
100809 i held her hand
140809 conference with nic, linda, wx, rache till 1am+, 2h 25mins!
041009 a call with tygh lasting 42mins?? lol


LIST OF MY WISHES/TO DO LIST

settle my year 5 class and combi
hopes: 5C21, Ma Ph Ec MEP
got: 5C21, Ma Ph Ec Geog (no regrets!)
get my basics right for volleyball
not be afraid to roll, anytime anywhere
compose songs at my leisure time
find the good voice in me to sing
pick up the guitar again to sing and play
finish up my 1000 piece puzzle
chance to learn playing the drumset
being able to learn the alto saxaphone
get into house committee in year 5?
maybe not.. i dont know...
lolol, i got into SW HOD.. what have i got myself into.. hah
music society to be a merit CCA
great aspiration, not enough dedication..
grow another 10cm within two years (in 2010)
play a clarinet solo with band accompaniment in 2010
music vocal instrumental group - sing n perform!
get back into drawing my little character
draw a series of it..!
hone my skills for sing and play on a keyboard
compose a little song that expresses myself


LIST OF 21 THINGS BEFORE I TURN 21

01
02 a scholarship
03 entry to desired university
04 getting my driving licence
05 bagpack tour in Europe/Egypt/India
06 write a song for my good friends (and sing it for them!)
07 explore every single spot there is in Singapore (on foot!)
08 fulfill a child's wish in Make-A-Wish Foundation (Adopt-A-Wish!)
09 participate in a marathon
10
11
12
13
14
15
16
17 participate in NDP performance.. wow..
18 I want a SLR CAM!!
19 save up to 5k in my current bank account
20 getting out of NS safely
21 a job that i will enjoy doing


ENJOYS

music~!
tea: iced/lemon/green
iced green tea latte~!
doing random things...
THINKING... (hmm...)
running... (away from reality?)
reading :)


HATES

the COLD
the loneliness
the dark


BELIEVES

no one should be left out
do what i say, say what i do
providing a listening ear
hold on to responsiblity
to know people personally and not generally
opening your heart is the key to understanding people


HOPES

to make a difference
to create my own music
to be confident and inspire others
to let my voice be heard...


WANTS

a cap~
a jacket..!
camera pouch
acoustic guitar
clarinet of my own
i dont want alr...
creative zen player
i got a ipod now!
electone stagea
i stopped learning electone, what use now?
camera of my own
new camera... (lost mine..)
will be careful this time...
own a laptop (pref MACbook)
nope... not macbook.. haha..
another rubix cube
to spearhead again a project/event
cnt believe i put this under my hopes.. now i dread it..